The thing is, right now the only things that come naturally to me are insulting myself, hating myself, and keeping shut out from the outside world as much as possible. It feels like the only place where I belong...
I'll blow up at myself over the smallest mistake, cry out "Why do I even bother?"
And later, when I realize it wasn't a mistake, I'll hate myself for not figuring it out sooner.
Can't lose, really.